Wearing your heart upon your sleeve can leave you quite vulnerable at times. But wearing your heart upon your belly dance routine leaves you really exposed, literally! I have always been expressive but nothing brings that out more than in my belly dance performance. As such, one could say it's an occupational hazard to have these moments immortalized through film. While it's always a blessing and rewarding to have success in doing something I love, the other side of the blade can cut deep into your self-image through hyper-image self-consciousness: how is it my makeup? is my outfit too tight, too loose, too revealing...what's that look on my face?!
Belly dancers realize how consuming and stressful it is preparing for a performance: there are countless hours of training/rehearsal in choreography, maintenance of belly dance outfits, accessorizing, proper application of make-up. When the performance ends, the applause of the audience rewards all of your preparation. However, the applause inevitable fades and you're left scrutinizing your performance...through the video and pictures taken of the event. Every nuance of my performance is frozen for all to see. Every smile, every frown, a glint in the eye, an inner sadness that manifests in a movement, a scream of joy animated in flailing arms. My conscious, my self-conscious, my every expression leaves me bare to the world.